Thursday, October 28, 2021

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Lioness Ellen at San Diego Zoo (Taken 10.27.21)

I guess I wasn't the only one who just wasn't feeling it today because the County didn't put up COVID data despite the fact that they're supposed to update daily. I was kinda having one of those days, too. First, we all know I don't love the heat, and today was hot. But after I babysat last night, Darren and I hung out in the speakeasy and then time got away from me so I didn't get enough sleep. I was trying to get work done this morning, but I just hit a wall around noon, so I just gave up, slept it off, and woke up feeling so much better. Huh. Who knew that 4 hours sleep is inadequate?

We visited my dad tonight and he's not well. The doctors have put the hope in his head that he might be able to go home while we can see with our own eyes that he cannot. I talked with my sister about it last night but it's so frustrating because she still hasn't vaccinated my niece, who became eligible at the beginning of the month. If she had done it back then, my niece would be three weeks away from fully vaccinated and would be able to see her grandpa. I don't think it has really hit my sister that he is at his end and could pass without ever seeing the girls in person again. It gets real real when he shows you his wristband with DNR on it, or shares that despite all his conditions and diabetes, they let him eat whatever he wants, though he mostly doesn't have an appetite, or when my mom talks right in front of him that hospice means he's going (gestures pointing upwards), as if we don't know, though maybe she just has to say it for herself so she can get used to the idea. The nurse they called cruel at Kaiser was maybe just not soft enough for their liking, but "lady, hospice could mean 6 hours or 6 months" was maybe the most honest thing a nurse has said to them.  

I haven't really worked through today's email because my head is elsewhere and every time there's some hope of movement on the Build Back Better bill I get two dozen more political emails, either fundraising, urging me to call my representatives, sign a petition or all three. Sometimes I have the tolerance to read through them all anyway. Today just isn't one of those days.

Stay safe out there. 

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