I was contacted on Friday by Pitchfork and they asked me if they could link to my blog regarding the Cane's show and the "incident" and I actually asked a few friends their advice about it... I mean of course a link on Pitchfork is huge, but I wasn't sure I was ready for the onslaught of hate I would receive. "All press is good press," my friends assured me.
I mean there was the actual incident, then there was my 4 a.m. drunk rant that night on MySpace, then a couple days later, I posted it on this blog where most of my audience are still friends of mine and for the most part supported me. I did acknowledge my whiny rant:
"...resulted in a 4 in the morning rant on my MySpace. In hindsight, I'm less pissed about what went down and the truth is that in reading my rant was chock full of expletives which then makes me no better than the guy I'm calling a whiny bitch. He was doing what he does, I was doing what I do."
But people will skim through that and take from it all what they will. I figured Pitchfork would talk to Ben to get his perspective and all, and of the nearly 1000 posts I have, I'm a little bummed that this was the one to get attention. I mean, it's one thing to rant on a MySpace bulletin, where I know my friends have my back, and then even here on this blog where most people, at least those who've bothered to comment, like what I'm doing here, but it's another thing entirely to have Indie Nation reading here and pitching in their two cents on something that they didn't witness and didn't experience. Worse is that they are only going to read one post, and in that, just the "juicy" shit where I rant like I'm in junior high.
Anyway, they did an extensive interview with Ben Bridwell about all of it and I don't know what to say except I feel like shit about all of it. I know plenty of people who no matter what, will think I'm an asshole, that I'm a thief, that I'm a bitch, whatever. Awesome. I will not censor any of the commentors who link to this site from P4K and hate me. But I did want to thank Ben. Because mostly behind all my rage and anger about what happened, the truth is that it just really hurt my feelings. He could've launched right back at me, because I'm sure he's read my rant (courtesy of P4K), but instead, he took the high road and sounds like he actually cares about what happened and that he's really sorry about the way it all went down. I could go on defending my position about everything, but all of this makes me really just wanna put the whole thing behind me.
So that said, thanks to Randall, because the follow up removes any of the sour I had. Thanks to SubPop for the e-mail and for not demanding that I kill the YouTube. I'll keep the new stuff for myself. Thanks to Pitchfork for the hype. Thanks to my friends for having my back. And again, thanks to Ben for being more of a man than most men would be in this situation.